Halloween

The beer was finished so headed over to Cameron's friend's house. Before we entered the house, both Cameron and Harrison intended to leave with a one-night stand. I was little miffed because they're being guys  who just want to get laid. I didn't say anything since I'm already in a relationship. Cameron and Harrison got drunk pretty fast. Harrison needs to work on his communication skills and talk less about himself. 

At some point, Harrison puked. Nadine ( Cam's sister), Brittany, Emily and Brian came over. Brittany is Harrison's ex-girlfriend so I felt that maybe her presence is a little uncomfortable. I didn't want to pry so I didn't ask. Cameron fell asleep but woke up to use the washroom. He sat back on the couch and I was watching him while being all comfy with Gavin. Then, it happened. Cameron began to throw up. It was really a quiet kind of vomiting because it just sort of flowed out of his mouth. I jumped for the paper towels and got him to the bathroom. I noticed a few tears but maybe it was from the gag reflex. Harrison is still asleep. A bunch of us helped cleaned up and we let Nadine know what happened. Both guys are currently sleeping in the basement as I type this. 

I was talking to Gavin about something that I had noticed. I feel like Cameron, Harrison, and David all held such great importance into getting laid. They're all not the most handsomest guys but they all have heart. I felt such great sympathy that they have a deluded sense of what they want which is to be close to someone or feel close enough. Gavin understood how they are because he wanted to be with someone too or maybe just to get laid. He has me now and he told me that he waited for me for so long because, as soon as he appreciated my companionship, he didn't want to force anything on me in fear of driving of me away. 

I told him that I was falling for him again. I want it to be forever. I asked if he's seriously looking for better career-jobs. He said, yeah. I love you, Gavin. The first time I said it I didn't want it to be the forever kind because I'm afraid that it'll be short-lived. Now, I do want it to be forever but I'm scared of what the future holds. We still have kinks to work out still. I don't want to delude myself and overlook our problems.