BFFIP

I am so conflicted that it shows in my face? I find that if something really bothers me it does. Long noticed how I wasn't in the normal cheery mood and he asked what is up with me. So, I told him how Gavin has some sort of insomnia and that he's feeling "severely depressed". I also spilled of how I currently feel about Gavin. Surprisingly, he understood how I felt and even sympathizes. He said I shouldn't be in that kind relationship because of how unhealthy it is and how much it's affecting me. He wants me to go back to my happy self. It's not fair for me to be in an asymmetrical relationship or that's how he puts it. The more and more I talked to Long the more and more I wanted to break up with Gavin. I wanted to cry because of the reality of it.

Gavin, I still want to be your best friend and I want to be there when you need help. I'll still love and support you. It's not that I want someone that's better than you ... I just think that our relationship isn't working and that we both shouldn't suffer because of it. If you someone that's just right for you I'll be happy. I want you to be happy. I just don't think it's me. Am I being too selfish?