The Pain

At times, I couldn't walk. I had to lean against the bar. It happened so fast I wanted to cry. It was embarrassing so I didn't say much about it. Stupid stupid. I found the exam brutal, especially the 'HNMR and the IR. Everything else was peachy-ok.

Mina and Jen are right. Gavin isn't very promising in terms of the future. Something's not right he seems a bit distant right now. I don't know if he feels it too. I am frightened of how it'll end. BOY, I sound so fucking pessimistic. 

I need to stop flirting so much and stop telling people about my life. Grrr but William and Sasha are cool with it. I don't know but I shouldn't spill so much. I sort of like Sasha and so I'm going to beat myself for that. I'm still with Gavin and I already plan to stay single for a while if we do break up. I also need to stop dating that Tall White Guy and give other types of guys a chance. Save the drama and such.